Thursday, April 05, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh.
Hmm.. Yesterday was my b'dae. And to dose ppl hu wished me, THANK U!!! I LURVE U PPL LYK MANIAC!!!! To dose ppl hu didn't, better luck next time. no worriez, i wun be taking any revenge. *peace-maker*
Birthday but it was harsh. Imagine sum1 important in ur life didn't wish u. Fuh! It hurtz real bad! And I practically listened to Danial Powter's Bad Day song. I was practically tinking I was juz having a bad day but d worse was yet to come. And now, I realised I'm damned, damned in a religious way. Itz lyk I'm confident I didn't hurt those people who hurt me. So, in a way, somebody else was trying to hurt me. I'm being really analytical. I juz had to tink dat God is hurting me. Lyk duh right.. Prolly caz I 4got him and dis is a reminder lyk "REMEMBER ME!". I wasn't seeing it coming caz itz lyk SUDDENLY, BOOM! I'm damned! At least, I realise my mistake and I'm hoping hard I wun repeat my same idiocy again. Forget God and tink abt sumbody else. Wth! Nobody can replace Allah, Farz.
I was in my room the whole time tinking wad had I done wrong. Y r ppl angry with me and hurting me real bad at d same time. N now, I've got d answer. Thx to my mum hu knocked some sense into me. I'm starting to kill my ego. I used to tink I'm d only right one and everybody else is wrong. Not anymore, at least I hope so. At first I thought I wun haf anyone to spill out my heart contents to, but I was wrong. I haf my mum, God and a dear friend who's still dere for me, Nazihah.
To my beloved cousin, Megat Shah Rezza, thx for being d fers to wish me tho itz at 2am and I was tucked in bed. Thx a lot tau tau tau. And Abang Putra too, itz really swt of u to actually advice me. I was really down at d moment and u were dere. Thank u, abang! Luv u 2 loadedly!!!
Itz amazing how God hurts u in such a way till u tot u cudn't pick urself up anymore. Itz amazing how he make u realise u still haf Him and some others d next moment. Itz amazing how he gave u everything n make u realise u're d luckiest person ever lived. Itz amazing how he took everything away when u 4got ur responsibility as an insan. Allah, u're juz so amazing. N i lurve u dearly, more than anything else. Alhamdulillah, I begin to realise what I took for granted; ur love. Ur everlasting love. I hope dis lesson wud make me a better person. Allow me to start life afresh, a better insan to my religion, a better ummah, a better daughter, a better sister, a better grand daughter, a better niece, a better cousin, a better friend. I hope I'll be better tho I can't be d best. D best is still Rasulullah saw.
Ya Allah, God of Mercy, God of Kindness, God of Everything, I thank u for everything. I never felt better in my life. I had juz turned 17 and I hope I'll b d best I can ever be. I love u and I really do, more than anth n everything else. Amin.
Tangisan selubungi alam kisah manusia yg terleka seperti diriku ini
Terhina di bumi sendiri
Hilang segala apa yg dibina
Kehancuran memusnah merata
Kehidupan insan tak berdaya
Dgn air mata, suka bertukar duka
Cara harapan berubah gelita
Kepadahan hidup yang amat sengsara
Keamanan, kedamaian, kerharmonian dan kasih sayang
Harapan dlm kehidupan setiap insan
Hulurkan bantuan kpda yang memerlukan
Semaikan pelita iman
Sinaran harapan pasti kan tiba
Menerangi hidup diri kita
Masa hadapan yg kita impikan
Hidup aman sentosa dan bahagia
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Don't give up
It's juz d weight of the world
When my heart's heavy, Allah will lift it for me
Don't give up
Because I want to be heard
If silence keeps me, Allah will break it for me
Everybody wants to be understood
Well, Allah can hear me
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because I am loved
Don't give up
It's just the hurt that I hide
When I'm lost inside, Allah will be there to find me
Don't give up
Becuase I want to burn bright
If darkness blinds me, Allah will shine to guide me
Everybody wants to be understood
Well Allah can hear me
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because I am loved
I am loved
Don't give up
Everyone needs to be heard
I am loved
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Bertali arus dugaan tiba
Menakung sebak airmata
Tidak ditempah hidup sengsara
Suratan nasib yg melanda
Menongkah badai bergelora
Diredah bersendirian
Bagaikan camar pulang senja
Patah sayapnya tetap terbang jua
Segenggam tabah dipertahankan
Buat bekalan di perjalanan
Kau bebat luka yg berdarah
Kau balut hati yg calar
Telah tertulis suratan nasibmu
Derita buatmu ada hikmahNya
Terlukis senyum di bibir lesu
Tak siapa tahu hatimu
Biar pun keruh air di hulu
Mungkinkah jernih di muara
Biarpun jenuh hidup dipalu
Pasti bertemu tenangnya
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Cinta itu cahaya sanubari
Kurniaan Tuhan fitrah insani
Dan di mana terciptanya cinta
Di situ rindu bermula
Cinta itu tidak pernah meminta
Tetapi memberi sepenuh rela
Rasa bahagia biarpun sengsara
Berkorban segala-gala
Semua kerana cinta
Yang pahit manis dirasa
Menghibur nestapa
Merawat luka damai di jiwa
Terpadam api benci permusahan
Terjalinlah kasih sayang
Begitulah cinta yang diidamkan
Tanpa nafsu yang mencemarkan
Dan jangan pula kerana bercinta
Kita pun leka entah ke mana
Dan jangan pula kerana bercinta
Tergadai semua maruah agama
Cinta yang sejati hanya cintakan Illahi
Cinta ayah bonda tulus suci selamanya
Cintakan saudara masa berada hanya sementara
Cinta sesama insan suburkan dengan ketaqwaan
15:22
