Wednesday, July 05, 2006
A'kum wr wb.. Currently at home, slacking.. haha.. itz very rare for me to slack dese dayz kayz.. Been studying lyk sum downtown nerd.. tsk tsk.. Argh!! Kayz.. currently feeling really exhausted so ya.. my whole body is aching.. Ya Allah, Kau berikanlah kekuatan kepada hambaMu ini agar dpt menimba ilmu hingga ke menara gading.. Hanya kepadaMu, aku dapat memohon segala.. Haiz.. I'm currently tuning in to some nasyid and I'm feeling so down.. Ya Allah, terimalah taubat hambaMu ini.. I wasted 15 years of my life enjoying myself, doing what I wanted.. Ya Allah, aku bersyukur kepadaMu kerana telah memberiku hidayah dan kesempatan untuk bertaubat.. I dunno y but tears are starting to well up my eyes.. Why do I haf to feel dis way? Y now and not before? Wadever it is, I'm greatful Allah swt has given me the chance to repent.. I've vowed to start my life anew and afresh.. Only Allah swt noes what I'm feeling right now..2day has not been a gr8 day for me.. Well, I had some fun with my friends here and dere.. But there were sparks of sadness, disappointment, guilt, anger, etc etc.. Well, I dunno watta do or say nemore.. haiz.. I'm starting to feel dat I can't trust anyone else in my lyf.. Why do I feel like people like to take advantage of me? Izzit true wad sum say abt me? Am I being too unreasonably nice? I doubt so caz I ikhlas tolong org.. Ya Allah, berikanlah petunjuk kepada hambaMu ini.. Haiz.. prolly dis is my dugaan in berdakwah.. Ya Allah, aku berserah kepada ketentuanMu.. Hanya Kau yg Mengetahui segala; yg baik mahupun yg buruk..Bertali arus dugaan tibaMenakung sebak airmataSegenggam tabah dipertahankanBuat bekalan di perjalananKau ubat luka yang berdarahKau balut hati yang calar Telah tertulis suratan nasibkuDerita buatku ada hikmahnyaTerlukis senyum di bibir lesuTak siapa tahu hatiku
Biarpun keruh air di huluMungkinkah jernih di muaraBiarpun jenuh hidup dipaluPasti bertemu tenangnyaI'm currently missing someone but well, he seems to be really busy so I dun wish to disturb him.. I wanted to talk to him but itz okay for now I guess.. I supposed I'm feeling kinda better ryt now after talking to my fren, Rahman.. Thx for d comfort Rahman.. I really appreciate it lotz..Ya Allah!! Now den I remember that d voting tingy for my suria tingy starts now!! Gotta end here n start voting ar!! Wassalam..
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Identity: Princess Farzana
Age: 17
School: Tanjong Katong Girls' School
Birthday: 4th April 1990
Castle: Pasir Ris, Singapore
I[The Princess Idolises]I
~Siti Khadijah
~Aisyah Humaira
~Fatimah Az-Zahra
~Rabiatul Adawiyah
~Sumaiyah
~Ainul Mardhiah
~Zinnirah
I[The Princess Loves]I
~Chocolates
~Roses
~teddy bears
~read love novels
~enjoying & appreciating nature
~writing poetries
~nice cute stuff which are purple, pink, white n black
~Everything abt Islam such as..
-Listening to Quran recitation by Misyari Afasi
-Listening to Zikrullah by Hijjaz
-Islam research
-Attending religious functions or events
-Planning events for Muslim youths [duh.. y do u tink i becum a Muslim youth activist]
~Purple, pink, black, white
~Loves kids!!! [duh.. y do u tink i do child-minding ryt..]
I[The Princess's Personality]I
~loving and lovable
~smile and laugh a lot
~bubbly
~true socialite
~happy-go-lucky
~annoying [I KNOW]
~can be complicated at times.. so, getta know me.. lol
~haf gd listening ears n shoulders to cry on
~loves home
~loves the library
~loves the mosque
~juz another human in Allah's list
I[The Princess Has]I
-dearestest someone, sometwo, somethree
-annoying but sweet younger brother n younger sister
-loving, understanding n supportive mama
-religious papa
I[Summary of The Princess]I
~a very simple girl who is devoted to Allah, Islam, her family and whoever she's committed to
~someone who has goals and dreams and would not let anyone stifle me from achieving them
~Honestly, guys who wear shorts in public turn me off. Disgusting can!
~a freelance volunteer. Lyk any Islam organisations or mosques which nd xtra help, can approach me. Insya'Allah will help if I'm not busy
~lurves kidz yepz! LOTZ!
CINDERELLA
* I CAN SLAY MY OWN DRAGON
* I CAN DREAM MY OWN DREAMS
* THE NIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR IS ME
When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory
I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me
I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' old old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no-one else
I'd rather rescue myself
Someday I'm gonna find someone
who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am Don't need nobody taking care of me
I will be there for him
just as strong as he will be there for me
when I get myself started
it got to be an equal thing
I can slay, my own dragon
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free
Lke cinderella
on dusty cellar