Sunday, December 16, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Today, I'm gonna blog about PEOPLE.. oh yes, PEOPLE.. get it? P.E.O.P.L.E. PEOPLE
I've been observing and realise the ugly humans and the weird kiddos.
Letz talk abt ugly humans first. I dont mean literally ugly as in with the need-a-makeover look. BUT ugly in terms of the personality.. they're not just ugly personality BUT rotten ones.. rotten stinking ones..
PERSON 1 It so happened that I was on the way home with mummy. We were in the train and there was this human (not gonna mention the race in case i've been accused of being racist) The train reached Kallang or sth and then there was this old frail woman and there was this young strong healthy man.. The old frail woman was "hurriedly rushing" to the empty seat which happened to be right in front of me.. N then, that idiotic brainless guy actually rushed to that seat despite seeing that old woman. How pathetic of him.. And then, me.. the unidentified-identity person practically stared at him.. N I really mean sharp stern stares.. He stared back at me.. So I stared back.. more stern than before.. Then I rolled my eyes and got up to give my seat to the poor lady.. Despite the fact that I'm more physically challenged as compared to that idiot.. Then, that aunty was like "Nvm.. u sit".. n then she stared at that idiot.. I gave out a little laughter.. duh.. it was just hilarious.. Telepathy between me n that lady.. It was just simply so cool uh.. So, do u think that idiot gave the sit to the lady? Expectedly, he didnt.. duh.. he is a shameless, emotionless jerk..
Person 2 I was at Cavana with my siblings and cousins having lunch.. We were in the midst of enjoying the mouth-watering meals before our eyes.. And then we heard a commotion.. So we stopped enjoying our respective meals and listened attentively.. We're humans so we cant help being nosy.. There was this Chinese family and they were scolding the waiter.. They persistently insisted that the food was wrong n they didnt order it.. N the poor waiter went to get the manager to clarify things.. N the manager was also scolded.. lol!!! It was superly hilarious.. However, we didnt laugh at the moment.. we were fussing abt how rude they were and stuff and how much they're robbing us off our enjoyment for our meals.. But it seemed to be hilarious after we recalled the whole mellow drama.. The commotion was stupid actually.. It went like this.. Father: We did not order rendang. Daughter: Yes, I didnt order rendang. Waiter: But itz written u ordered rendang. Father: We really did not order rendang. Waiter: Are you sure, sir? Daughter: I dont event like rendang. Waiter: Ok. *manager comes to the rescue* Manager: What is the problem here sir? Father: We said we did not order rendang but ur waiter insisted we did. Waiter: Itz written here. Daughter: I didnt order rendang. I ordered curry. *manager n waiter looked at each other, trying to control laughter* Manager: We dont sell curry here. *Father puts on a surprised look* Daughter: But just now, I ordered curry. Manager: U probably ordered rendang but u didnt realise it. Father: We did not know.. so we want other food. Manager: U cant do that sir. Father: But we didnt know.. *yag, yag, yag.. yada yada yada* Manager: Ok sir.. This family of ugly, attention-seeking humans.. Like come on.. ure stupid enough to not realise u ordered rendang when they dont even sell it, morons! Just live with it n finish up the food u wrongly ordered n dont make a fuss.. They're still food after all, idiotz! Humans like u make many not choose waitressing as a job. Geddit?
Now, letz move on to weird kiddos..
KIDDO 1 She seemed to be really amused with the sink at KFC.. She was draining out the water from the tap like it was nobody's business.. Enjoying every single moment, "cleaning up" the sink.. Seems like she would get "sink-cleaning" as her future job.. Thatz so inspirational, my dear girl.. And then, she turned around and saw a long queue behind her waiting patiently to wash our hands, tho we felt like dumping her into the bin or flushing her down the toilet bowl.. Since I was right behind her, I just signalled to her to get lost with my eyes.. And then, know wad she did? She ignored me and the long queue and continued with the sink-washing job she was definitely proud of.. Sweetheart, u do NOT ignore this lady here.. And then... Me: ERHEM!!! Girl: *looks at me n ignored* Me: my dear, could u please go away caz there is a long queue of eager ppl who r PATIENTLY WAITING to wash our hands Girl: *ignores* Me: Can u freaking get lost now!? Girl: *ignores* Me: * went to the sink n ignored her there n washed my hands* Surprisingly, the rest did the same. The girl was annoyed and went away.. lol!!! Seriously, all these spoil brats.. Parents, please teach them some manners and give them something more benefitial to do rather than some jobs u obviously dont want them to have in the future..
KIDDO 2 One fine day.. at the HPB school dental.. Boy: Mummy! Mummy! I dont want! Mum: Stay still. Itz not painful. Just for awhile. Boy: Mummy! Aaaaaaaaaaaa! Pain, mummy! U dont know the pain mummy! Mum: I know.. Boy: U dont know the pain mummy.. Aaaaaaaaa mummy!!!!!! Me n my mum just looked at each other n wanted to laugh.. Poor boy.. but come on.. the dentist wont murder u with those instruments.. so, hush before my dentist accidentally murdered me just caz she was disturbly shocked from ur consistent screamings..
20:52
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Your results: You are Supergirl
Supergirl
95%
Superman
85%
Wonder Woman
80%
Green Lantern
80%
Spider-Man
55%
Hulk
50%
The Flash
50%
Robin
47%
Iron Man
40%
Batman
35%
Catwoman
20%
Lean, muscular and feminine. Honest and a defender of the innocent.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Aku nak blog lagi. oh yes.. bukan pasal nak megutuk saper2 uh. tapi kalau terasa, sendiri feeling2 uh.. tk yah kasi org lain feeling2. tk kuasa.
FIRSTLY: the title "BUDAK MADRASAH" aku mengaku ada yang baik dan insya'Allah masa depan cerah. tapi aku leh kata yg RAMAI jugek yg gi madrasah tapi kalau pat luar mcm setan. yes, n to crap to those yg cakap budak madrasah lebih baik drpd budak secular. one word -> GELI!!!! braper ramai budak secular yg berlipat ganda lebih baik lah sey.. seriously.. aku tk ckp aku one of them k.. so jgn nk anyhow kata aku prasan.
SECONDLY: the title "minah tudung" aku tak leh tahan dengan minah2 yg bertudung yg mencemar nama baik mereka yg bertudung dan berakhlak baik. seriously lah sey.. n seriosly.. tudung is not a trend k. this note is especially to those minah tudung idiots who take is a trend..
1stly: when u wear tudung.. u freaking needa cover ur boobs lah sey.. seriously, dont show off ur boobs lah u bloody sluts..
2ndly: when u wear tudung, u dont wrap it all around ur head like some idiots who dont know how to use toilet papers in the cartoons.. u dont show off ur ear-rings caz indirectly, ure showing off ur ears n hence, ur hair. USE UR BRAIN! buat apa Allah kasi otak seh kalau korang tk tau gunakan. nak aku ajar korang? boleh, anytime, anywhere.. as long u happy, i happy, everybody happy ending..
3rdly: minah2 tudung, inclusive of budak madrasah who pakai tudung or together with baju madrasah n do premarital sex n record them. BODOH LAH SEY! dah tak sabar tunggu time akhirat ke per nak kasi org tgk kelakukan jijik korang yg diibaratkan seperti binatan? nanti pat akhirat kitorang leh tgk lah sey.. tv besar lagi. so korang leh relax.. tk yah nak record2 ni sumer. hmph! JIJIK!
korang ehk.. nampak dan dengar tak orang2 yg tidak bertudung yg mengata ttg mereka yg bertudung? wanita yg bertudung.. diibaratkan seperti contoh kepada sesetengah yg tidak bertudung untuk mendorong mereka untuk bertudung. jaga lah akhlak. kalau akhlak dah tak leh jaga dan dah mcm binatang, itu tudung leh buka. pui! memalukan Islam lah seh! geram aku!
19:42
I was doing my hadis project. aha yes.. I practically completed it. N guess what happened next.. nope.. not my pc/laptop broke down.. nope.. i didnt do the wrong topic.. what happened was i called my friend to clarify with her whether there was any tafsir project.. n from there, i came to know that there isnt any hadis project too.. Grrrr.. Can u imagine how devastated I was? Sheesh..
I didnt know abt the cancellation of the project caz I hadnt attended PERGAS due to Os.. Grrrrr...
I was listening to the song from Newboyz which I used to like and still like.. lol.. yes, i was a fan of theirs. N i still do listen to their songs. I like their songs, not them. Itz the same as me like britney's songs, not her. lol.
I actually like Newboyz songs such as "Andainya Kau Terima", "Khilaf", "Hiasan Di Laman Rindu", "Lerai Genggamanku", "Qyiam", "Rajuk Di Hati", "Meraung".. yes.. all sad songs.. dont know y but i do find d pleasure in listening to sad songs. i'm not referring to the sexual pleasures.. just pleasure as in bring happiness. I'm nt mobid or indifferent, i'm just what u call unique. Muah!
18:27
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh..
Today, I'm gonna blog about something which caught my attention. The question that keeps getting me ponder on is "Moden Muslims or Murtads?". Yes, i don't haf a good explaination for these thoughts n i'm aware that itz a big issue that needs immediate attentions. N this entry isn't focused on anyone. It has been moderated n generalised a lot.
I have Muslim friends all over the world who aren't Singaporeans, Malaysians or Arabs only. Yes, they come from all over the world.. Canadian white Muslim, Russian Muslim, Albanian Muslim, Turkish Muslim, Egyptian Muslim and many others. This entry isn't an offence to anyone but it seriously got my full attention.
Firstly, I realise that there are wrong practices in certain countries like Italy. I have an Italian friend who seemed really interested in knowing more abt Islam. He looks up to me to learn more. I told him i'm dhaif n he should look for someone who can explain Islamic doubts better. But well, I did help him here and there, more or less so that he'll at least have d faintest idea about the beauty of Islam.
My Italian friend is a Catholic who is ignorant of his own religion. He is looking for the answers to believing in the right religion. In Italy, they do learn about Islam in school. Oh yes they do. But the thing that worries me is that the teachers teaching Islam there are Catholics. That sounds very wrong, doesn't it. N then, he clarified some doubts with me and he got his facts all wrong which is very sad. The facts can sorta cause one think badly of Islam. Really. Can u imagine a Catholic teaching Islam? thatz so wrong. itz just like a Muslim teaching Catholism. get what i mean?
I have some friends from other spots of the world. The thing that worried me is that they either don't practice Islam due to no interest or some due to not knowing how.. or they have the wrong facts. Oh yes.. the popular of all is the issue on Muslim marriages. This statement is so popular among them "Muslim guys can get married to a non-Muslim girl without having the girl to convert". From what I've learnt, this is HARAM caz no matter what, the non-Muslim girl MUST convert. Anyway, this goes the same way to the Muslim girls who wanna marry a non-Muslim guy. The non-Muslim partner must convert to Islam. Many of them aren't aware of the significance of converting. It really saddens n worries me a lot.
Muslims who drink or doing pre-marital sex. It isn't something rare anymore. Moreover u can't say those ppl from other countries do that n Singaporeans don't. Caz well, i'm sure u ppl would've noticed the tremendous increase in the rate of pregnant young Muslim girls and also the high rate of abortions which is increasing tremendously by young Muslim girls too. They've committed the first sin of doing pre-marital sex and they did the second sin of aborting the poor innocent foetus. Where is the humanity? That child deserves to live. Haiz.. Spare a thought please. I'm not bringing up other religions caz it isn't in my position to talk abt it. So, I'm talking abt the Muslims. My dearest Muslim brothers and sisters. Spare a thought please. This is a huge worry and needs immediate attention. Ponder on it. Yes, PONDER on it caz u might never know ure one of them who needs help. At least, make the effort to seek some help. Go to the mosque and seek for some guidance from the religious teachers or something. Don't just sit there and let it sink in. U might never know how much u really need to seek these knowledges. At least, think about the guidance towards the path of jannah.
And about those who drink. This is so common nowadays. In fact, way too common. Oh yes. I'm not trying to lure anyone into thinking so negatively of Islam. I'm saying this caz one of my cousins drink too. I have friends who drink too. n yes, they are Muslims. Don't get me wrong.. I know these people caz they are my friends. I'm not badly influenced anyway. Alhamdulillah.
I'm greatly impressed with a Canadian friend. he changed tremendously. yes.. taubatan nasuha. Now, he solat, fast, practice Islam. Alhamdulillah. Moreover, he was not like that. But he changed. In fact, he changed a lot.. tremendously. It teared me. Yes, up to that extent. It was really touching. Alhamdulillah. I am really proud of him. He put in the effort. & Alhamdulillah my prayers were granted by Allah. Alhamdulillah. Allah gave him taufik n hidayah. Alhamdulillah.
N lastly, i strongly believe that religious teachers and other da'i need to go to other countries too to dakwah. They shouldn't be constricted to da'wah in their respective countries only. There are many other countries that need our kindest attention. Would u let ur Muslim brothers n sisters just fall into the grasp of people who have bad intentions of corrupting their beliefs in Islam and pulling them towards the other religions? Would u let them fall? I'm sure u won't. So, u gotta play ur part in pulling them out of the grasp and guide them. Insya'Allah ur good attentions won't be put to waste. Don't be selfish. U wanna go jannah, so do others.. Helping one another isn't a chore but a bliss especially if u're successful. Masya'Allah. Yes, it requires a lot of money to dakwah overseas n ladidadida.. Insya'Allah we can.. Like perhaps.. the mosques in Singapore should collaborate in collecting funds. Much more can be done. United we stand, divided we fall. N none of us want Islam to fall.. I'm sure of that. So, we can do it, ppl! Woohoo!
I gotta end this here. Wabillahi taufik wal hidayah wassalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh.
16:58
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
The princess says..
I was chatting with a friend and he sent me a link.. These videos are so hilarious that the jokes are still fresh in my mind.. "FONE JACKER".. thatz the name of the videos. I can tell that it was obviously one of the tv programmes of a country. The videos are so hilarious and they are actually real prank calls so the receiver had totally no idea of the intended call. I recommend my fellow dear ones to actually watch it. Seriously, go watch them.
N these videos reminded me of the jokes in "Bujang Lapok" movies which were random and very hilarious..
00:45
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Oh man.. I'm tired.. yes really tired.. n I studied chemistry.. adds up to the exhaustion. In fact, I still am studying. Taking a break at the moment. My brain doesn't seem to be functioning well. Time check: 00:04. Argh!!! I need my beauty sleep. Oh yes, the princess needs her beauty sleep. Hmm.. i found my cinderella blogskin!!! the princess is in the house, ppl! BOW TO ME!
00:03
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Ramai org dah tag-menge-tag pasal puasa except aku sorang. Jadi aku pon nk ckp pasal puasa ler..
Gi skolah ada yg tak puasa.. biasa ler tu.. Ada siap ngan bawak air botol untuk menghilangkan dahaga. Dah bawak air botol.. ada siap ngan minum depan yg berpuasa. Apa case seh puasa-puasa.. Aku tau lah all-girls school tapi at least hormat uh sikit. Sikit pon takper.. drpd tk hormat langsong lah kan.. Abeh kalau dah tk puasa tu.. tk yah lah ni bilang satu dunia yg korang nk gi makan pat canteen. Lyk seriously.. Kalau tk hormat ramadhan atau org yg berpuasa, at least hormatilah diri sendiri. Tak tau malu ke per.. Ish ish ish.. And plez uh.. kita takmo amek tau kau dtg bulan ke tk.. seriously..
Abeh ada mamat pat bugis village minum air.. cantik.. Ice blended lagi.. best uh.. Kita yg berpuasa tgk.. wah best.. Slamat iman tu maseh ada.. fuh!
And to the non-Muslims, PLEASE (i'm pleading).. DO NOT HAVE UR DINNER WHEN THE MUSLIMS ARE BREAKING OUR FAST. be considerate can.. Imagine urself being us.. so hungry n thirsty and we had to WAIT for u to finish ur meal.. poor thing right..? i know it kinda sound pathetic but seriously.. don't misunderstand uh but we Muslims really need ur consideration. I mean u can like have ur meals EARLIER or perhaps in non-halal restaurants. Just don't go to halal restaurants during our breaking of fast.. if u want to, go earlier or later. i mean u had ur lunch n u can tahan what.. we hadn't had lunch or breakfast u c.. worse can..
Anyway, thatz all I'm gonna blog abt. the time nw is 5 mins to 12 midnight.. yawnz!
23:34
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Well, I don't know what the hell I'm blogging when I'm supposed to be studying. Boredom-struck.. tsk2.. things are gr8 so far.. Loving life with my loved ones.. Tho I've been really stressed up lately.. Not enough sleep and stuff.. really exhausted too.. I'm just freaking bored today.. Therefore, decided to study. SO SICK of studying n itz only Prelims. Itz not even Os yet.. waddaheck! Sick of studying -> got me thinking.. should i got to JC or Poly? lol.. ah well, JC is my choice caz itz d safest route to uni. Moreover, i'm sick of travelling. Therefore, i hafta get to MJC! *prays hard* My health doesn't allow me to travel much. Suffered the long distance ot travelling to n from TKGS.. ah well..
Life's really gr8 loving R*** N*****.. lol.. many said.. he's 11 yrs older than u, farz! n i was like.. "does it matter?".. caz it doesn't.. if he's my jodoh, then what can i say? i'm not saying he IS my jodoh.. but, IF he's my jodoh.. then YAY! lol.. oopz.. i mean Alhamdulillah..
ee aper ni farz merepek.. kay nvm.. forget it..
15:36
Thursday, August 16, 2007
i've been telling myself this in order for me to reach greater heights in life..
"itz hard for u to go through life n education with ur illness but prove to everyone that even though u're ill, u're capable too. others manage to go to school often unlike u. when u lag behind, u gotta pull urself forward. remember Allah n he'll help u. strive harder since u need to. u need to strive 10 times more compared to ur other friends. have faith in urself n God. insya'Allah u'll pull through in the end. success lies in ur hands, not others. it requires undying sheer determination. if u fall down, pick urself up, don't wait for anyone to help u up. waiting won't aid u in any way. do things urself. be independent caz u are capable to succeed like others. what u want lies in ur heart, u decide what u want in life, who u wanna be. others won't. take failures as a challenge for u to build up ur spirit n do better in life, not as a steep slope that cause u to gradually decline. Allah is there for u. Have faith. u determinely try but if success is not given to u, Allah knows best. Allah knows whatz best for u"
20:26
Friday, July 20, 2007
I was listening to these songs.. Tho some are lyk decades already.. But I lurve 'em okay.. ever since they were fers broadcasted.. they haf this "WOW" meaning in it.. Prolly caz I'm in these kinda mood too.. veh emo i noe.. but can't help feeling it.. newayz, moreover caz she's a fantabulous singer, derefore, she can wonderfully evoke dis feeling of emo-ness u c..
13:30
Monday, July 16, 2007
Assalamualaikum Warrahmatullahi Ta'ala Wabarakatuh..
Itz been three nights I was hoping he would appear online or at least message me.. sorta three nights looking for him.. n for three nights my heart felt so lonely.. tsk.. 3 malam ku mencarimu??? 3 malam hatiku sunyi??? i'm into this song?? actually, wad i juz typed really happened n is happening..
Absence makes d heart grow fonder? Betcha haf heard of dat.. juz feeling really down at the moment.. Missing someone so much it hurts real bad. I don't know why the sudden.. For the past 3 nights, I couldn't do anything about it. I'm too shy to tell him that I actually missed him so much.. He used to be online almost all d tym but now, he isn't online at all. N i'm this idiot hu can't do anything. yeh, totally nth. I can juz sit here in my room, attempting to study sumting budden, reality check.. my heart isn't at ease so howta expect my mind to be at peace? i juz miss him real bad.. so bad it hurts.. y am i feeling this? ironically, we're not even together.. tsk.. me n my smart decision not to get involved in all these, thinking i'll b d most successful moron not to like anyone and only devote myself to my religion, family n studies? Reality check, i am still thinking abt him. yeh.. sheeshness.. it hurts kay.. i miss him.. shows how much i like him. cud it be more than that? haha.. wadever.. i'm typing all these to let out all d hurts deep within. i didn't show it but i definitely cannot stop feeling it. dese intense pressure of trying to focus on my studies, get him outta my mind and also not stressing up myself at d same time. howz dat gonna happen? honestly, it never happened.. i've never been d successful moron i thought i'd be.. not lyking anyone? n honest joke!!! yeh caz i do lyk sum1. itz been since last yr.. can't help feeling it but me n my stupidity.. i juz kept it all inside. reality check, itz not juz a crush!!! grr!!!
Itz a freaking idiotic joke that I actually tried to make him hate me by being a bitch towards him. all those harshness n belligerence??? possible-not! i msged or typed to him on msn all those hurtful stuff but sumting he never knew, i cried okay while doing all those. i'm not as heartless as he thought i m.. i'm very heartful.. uhuh.. when he told me he was working sumwhere near d mrt station i always alighted to go to sch, i was looking forward towards it but i zipped up. i was scared.. for sum reasons.. i was really scared if he knew the truth.. TOTALLY!!!
another freaking idiotic joke! msged him dumb stuff lyk why's malay LC so tricky? wad kinda crap is dat? i'm laughing at myself really hard! itz lyk obvious-much caz itz LC.. so ya, listen n comprehend. farz, u're d biggest idiot u ever noe of.. honestly, i juz wanted to hear from him.. juz wanted to get a reply.. juz miss his msges real bad.. actually, miss him.. uhuh.. i didn't care how hurtful his reply wud be as long as i got a reply. n boy was i so happy! i cud haf jumped! budden, muz maintain.. tsk.
i practically sent so many ppl gdnyt msges so dat i cud send him too.. n itz lyk obvious-much i wanted to send it to him only.. i was honest enough to send to many ppl so dat i wasn't lying caz i stated things lyk "gdnyte to EVERYONE" n oso "U PPL".. tsk. i feel so loser. lyk come on uh, if u really lyk sum1, u'll do d moz ridiculous things on earth. yeh.
when i c him, my heart doesn't only skip a beat. it skips beats. i cud haf fainted as i didn't get enough oxygenated blood pumped to my heart! itz not only when i c him.. itz oso when he msges me n i'll juz go omg! yay! but obviously i didn't show it.. muz maintain uh..
nw, dere's lyk no news from him. n i was thinking if he's all right. budden, in case he was busy so i dun wanna bother him. moreover, itz his last yr in .. so ya..
i haf dis big problem of being really scared n shy when it comes to him. i tremble when i get his msg, reply his msg, chatting to him.. i seriously tremble.. n i'll haf dis adrenaline rush which juz goes whoosh! duh-much!
in d midst of all these so-called dramatic life, i didn't 4get my one n only creator, Allah. prayed to him umpteen tyms to release all these tensions, get myself at ease n dat if we're meant to be then yay (i obviously didn't use yay when i prayed) n if we're not meant to be then, matchmake me with sum1 better..
i hope one day i can really meet him up n talk.. tho i noe i wud prolly turn him down agn caz of my fear.. Ya Allah, show sum miracle.
Another big problem is dat i haf 2 guyz hu confess to me over n over agn. it makes me mad n i really showed that i was mad.. duh.. wudn't u if u rejected dem over n over agn n dey wudn't juz give up.. so annoying-much! reality check, i'm not interested in u, go find sum1 else.. budden, i obviously didn't say dat. i gave VALID reasons.. mark d valid. i wanna focus on my studies n datz a TRUTH! n another truth which i'm really scared to mention is dat my heart is sumwhere else tho itz not yet with sum1 else but at least, itz sumwhere else. At least, I'm not dragging those 2 guyz along.. i ain't dat kinda bitch.. if i were to be a bitch, i'll be a respectable one n die with honour.. Divined bitch? lol.
I suppose I shud end here n i really hope the particular sum1 reads dis.. I'm not gg to tell him i update my blog. i guess he'll give d kinda response which makes me pissed lyk "i m not bothered". tsk. so ya, if he can be bothered or at least cares, he wud read. i actually tried to find sum tym to type dis whole thing caz i juz needa express how I really feel. If his heart belongs to sum1 else, I wud really appreciate if he tell me d truth. I noe it hurtz but datz part of lyf. Dere's ups n downs.
n plus, i wud understand that he cannot accept me n d fact that my health isn't improving n i haf to go for surgery for every 3 mths. which guy wants? NO GUY. reality check. moreover, i wudn't wanna destroy other's life juz caz i'm not as capable. i believe in if d guy really loves me wholeheartedly, he wud accept me at any means. aww.. datz sweet isn't it.
Acknowledging Mel. Tan. thx for d get well gift n card.. i appreciate them lotz. dere's no cure for my illness but dat was definitely a cure for my spirit. thx. luv u lotz my fren.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
The song dat brings tears to d eyes. Tym to repent. N it starts from now..
13:58
Sunday, May 27, 2007
WHERE'S THE RESPECT FOR WOMEN? Following is an article taken from Berita Harian..
MAT REMPIT RAKAM DENGAN TELEFON BIMBIT AKSI MENCABUL GADIS KUALA LUMPUR:
Selepas sekian lama nama buruk kumpulan Mat Rempit tidak kedengaran, golongan itu sekali lagi tampil dengan aksi keterlaluan apabila merakam aksi melampau ketika mencabul seorang gadis bertudung menggunakan telefon bimbit.
Lebih biadab, rakaman itu disebarkan pula sesama mereka, sebelum turut diperoleh orang lain. Seorang penuntut institusi pengajian tinggi awam, Encik Mohd Aidil Mohd Rosley, 20 tahun, berkata klip video dirakam dengan telefon bimbit berkamera itu diterimanya daripada seorang rakan. Menurutnya, klip video terbaru itu dianggap menyedihkan terutama apabila ia membabitkan remaja perempuan Melayu.
'Hasil penelitian, rakaman selama 4 minit 36 saat itu menunjukkan seorang gadis bertudung yang berseluar panjang dan berbaju-T hitam lengan panjang cuba dicabul di kawasan semak oleh sekurang-kurangnya tiga lelaki.
ALOR STAR: Seorang lelaki yang menghadapi hukuman mati bagi tuduhan membunuh dan merogol seorang kanak-kanak perempuan pada 2002, kelmarin terlepas daripada tali gantung selepas pendakwa meminda pertuduhan terhadapnya.
Khairul Anuar Ineleyes, 28 tahun, mengaku bersalah terhadap tuduhan pindaan iaitu menculik supaya mangsa dibunuh ketika prosiding di Mahkamah Tinggi di sini.
Berikutan itu, Pesuruhjaya Kehakiman Datuk Mohd Sofian Abdul Razak, menjatuh kan hukuman penjara 15 tahun bermula tarikh dia ditangkap pada 2 November 2002 dan tiga sebatan.
Pada 25 November 2002, tertuduh menghadapi dua tuduhan berasingan iaitu mengikut Seksyen 302 Kanun Keseksaan kerana membunuh Siti Nur Liyana Shamimi Rosdi ketika itu berusia setahun 11 bulan dan Seksyen 376 kanun sama kerana merogol mangsa.
Dia didakwa melakukan perbuatan itu di kawasan lapang belakang Taman Rakyat, Mergong di sini antara 10.30 malam, 30 Oktober dengan 10 pagi, 1 November 2002.
Bagi tuduhan itu, dia boleh dihukum gantung mandatori mengikut Seksyen 302 dan penjara maksimum 20 tahun dan tidak kurang enam sebatan bagi Seksyen 376.
Kelmarin, sebaik prosiding bermula, Timbalan Pendakwa Raya, Encik Murtazadi Amran, memaklumkan pendakwa bersetuju meminda pertuduhan.
Hukuman bagi seksyen pindaan itu ialah mati atau penjara maksimum 20 tahun atau disebat. - BHM.
'Rakaman awal menunjukkan Mat Rempit terbabit rakus meraba tubuh gadis itu yang masih berpakaian sambil mangsa berulang kali merayu supaya dilepaskan,' katanya.
Rakaman seterusnya menunjukkan Mat Rempit terbabit mula menggunakan kekerasan dengan memegang per gelangan tangan gadis itu, sementara rakan mereka yang lain cuba membuka tali pinggang dan seluar mangsa. 'Mangsa yang diasak dari serata arah oleh kumpulan Mat Rempit terbabit akhirnya gagal mempertahankan diri sebelum seluar dan bajunya ditanggalkan.
'Tambah menyedihkan apabila mangsa terus diraba dan dicabul sesuka hati,' katanya.
Penganalisis jenayah terkenal, Encik Kamal Affendi Hashim, berkata pelaku jenayah terbabit boleh didakwa kerana mencabul kehormatan dan boleh dikenakan hukuman penjara maksimum 10 tahun atau denda atau sebatan. - Harian Metro.
18:56
Saturday, May 26, 2007 Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh. Hari ini, saya cuma mahu mengenangkan serikandi-serikandi Islam yang sangat saya hormati dan merekalah idola saya. -----------------------------------------------------------------------
Rabiatul Adawiyah Engkau bermula dengan sengsara Dalam mencari bahagia Terasa bagai bayang-bayang Gelap walau disuluh cahaya
Pepasir pantai pun berubah Pabila hakikat melanda Ketenangan yang kau cari Terpancar di lorong sufi
Kau hiasa rumah kasih abadi Serik menghiasi singgahsanaMu Kau berjaya merubah segala Kasih semalam menjadi esok
Kelunakan tangisan kasihmu Dalam simpuhan ketaatan Bagi mengharapkan keredhaan DariMu Tuhan pencipta alam
Rabiatul Adawiyah Serikandi yang tercipta Sungguh agung pengabdianmu Kau berjaya menjadi iktibar
Asmaramu dihampar suci Pintalan dari awanan putih Membuahkan titisan rahmat Menyuburkan mawar yang layu
Namamu menjadi sanjungan Ikutan ummah sepanjang zaman Ayuh bersama kita susuli Perjalanan kekasih Allah
Rabiatul Adawiyah Serikandi yang tercipta Sungguh agung pengabdianmu Kau berjaya menjadi iktibar
Asmaramu dihampar suci Pintalan dari awanan putih Membuahkan titisan rahmat Menyuburkan mawar yang layu
Ratu Syahadah Engkaulah permaisuri di mahligai tirani Teguh imanmu walau tersembunyi Kasihmu kau buktikan sebagai isteri Namun cintamu untuk Illahi
Engkau masih isteri yang sejati Ketika suami dimurka Allah Istana bukan penjara nikmat yang alpa Sinar imanmu tak kelam permata Kau miliki jiwa hamba Walau di sisimu singgahsana
Sejarah Asiah telah membuktikan Iman bukanlah penjara di jiwa Yang selamanya bersembunyi Tapi kemerdekaan yang hakiki
Yang punya wajah dan jua rupa Akhirnya imanmu bersuara Lantas kau dipenjara dan diseksa Oleh suamimu yang dihina
Dikejauhan istana keangkuhan Menggamit mata sayunya di jiwa Namun hatimu tak sudi ke sana Iman dan aqidah lebih utama
Ratu syahadah lalu bermadah Oh Tuhan binakan istana untukku Walau di dunia ku disiksa Namun tak terbayar nikmat di syurga
Oh Asiah Kau merubah rencana Bila tanganmu menyentuh bayi Yang hanyut menongkah arus Sungai Nil Lembutmu mematahkan keangkuhannya Firaun merancang, kau menghalangnya Musa terbuang, jadi terbilang
Zinnirah Hadirmu bersama kuntum senyuman Walau dirimu hamba tawanan Kau jadi impian firdausi Kau jadi pingitan hiasan duniawi Walau tak pernah melihatmu Zinnirah
Matamu jadi taruhan Gantian lara nilaian iman Ayuh bersama kita susuli Perjalanan derita ini Terlindung sudah indahnya maya Mata hatimu tetap menyala
Oh Zinnirah Kau umpama bintang di malam hari Menerangi alam dan ditemani cahaya purnama Selaut kasih kau hamparkan untuk Illahi Tiada sempadan dan tiada bertepi
Maamu jadi taruhan Gantian lara nilaian iman Ayuh bersama kita susuli Perjalanan derita ini Terlindung sudah indahnya maya Mata hatimu tetap menyala
Oh Zinnirah Kau umpama bintang di malam hari Menerangi alam dan ditemani cahaya purnama Cinta murni yang kau dambakan untuk Illahi Tiada sempadan dan tiada bertepi
Oh Zinnirah Kau serikandi sunyi bersendiri Di medan ngeri dan bersuara sepenuh berani Kasih suci yang kau hulurkan untuk Illahi Menagih korban kasih abadi
Hadirmu bersama senyuman Walau diri hamba tawanan Kau jadi pedoman
Zinnirah Kau gadis pilihan Hiasan di dunia Penyeri di firdausi
Ainul Mardhiah Dirimu pembakar semangat perwira Rela berkorban demi agama Kau jadi taruhan berjuta pemuda Yang bakal dinobat sebagai syuhada Itulah janji pencipta yang Esa
Engkaulah bidadari dalam syurga Bersemayam di mahligai bahgia Anggun gayamu wahai seorang puteri Indahnya wajah bermandi seri Menjadi cermin tamsilan kendiri Untuk melakar satu wacana Buatmu bernama wanita
Ainul Mardhiah Kau seharum kuntuman di taman syurga Menanti hadirnya seorang lelaki Untuk menjadi bukti cinta sejati
Oh Tuhan Bisakah dicari di dunia ini Seorang wanita bak bidadari Menghulurkan cinta setulus kasih
Ainul Mardhiah Kau seharum kuntuman di taman syurga Menanti hadirnya seorang lelaki Untuk menjadi bukti cinta sejati
Oh Tuhan Bisakah dicari di dunia ini Seorang wanita bak bidadari Menghulurkan cinta setulus kasih Di hati lelaki bernama kasih
Thursday, May 24, 2007 I'm not missing you Been through just everything that I could go through When it comes to relationships Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listened When I told myself that was it Now here I go, hurt again Caz of my curiosity Now that it's over What else could it be, he just had to cheat I made a promise never to settle Why didn't I keep it? Caz I hated the heartbreak Crying and cheating, the fooling around But I'm not missing you I'm not going through the motions Waiting and hoping you call me I'm not missing you You might have had me open But I must be going because I got life to do I know I'm usually hanging on I used to hate to see you gone But this time it's different I don't even feel the distance I'm not missing, I'm not missing you It's a shame in a way caz I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me Did I leave him? Is her right in front of my face? Or will my true love ever be? Why would I go on search again When I know what the end will be What good is love when it keeps on hurting me? No, I can't be with you caz I'm scared Felt like I was falling when you left me I can't keep going through life Unaware of what I missed and the person I could be Love's good when it's right And when it's left in your memory All the times I let you down I guess love will be nice for someone else's life I'm not missing you I'm not going through the motions Waiting and hoping you call me Knocking at my door You might have had me open But I must be going because I got life to do It's the best day of my life
I'M NOT MISSING YOU ***Mark the red followed by the pink followed by the purple***
22:29
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Once upon a tym, there was dis gurl hu really lyked dis guy. Wanted to getta noe d guy better but to her disappointment, he's not hu he turned out to be. She's speechless. She kept denying d fact dat she lyks him. So, does she really lyk him? Y does it hurt real bad when she found out he's sum1 else's? Izzit her fault for not being honest with her own feelings towards him? Or izzit his fault for not telling d truth. Well, itz nobody's caz dis is wad u call fate. Her eyes welled up with her own tears but she hid it. Once agn, she has decided. I hafta be strong n strong enough to hate guyz n make dem hate me. But is dat a gd idea? undecided. her heart shattered to tiny pieces. d guy whom she admired since long tym ago. d guy whom she thought isn't lyk any other guy caz he comments on her harshly. but she really likes it. she likes d way he comments on her n not flatters her. she likes d way he criticises her. she lyks d way he made her feel insulted. but not all hopes turn to dreams n den reality. she's happy caz he's happy. she's happy for him. she's proud of him. she appreciates him for being honest with her abt wad actually has been happening. one ting for sure, she really appreciates him but not as sum1 she admires anymore. as a fren, juz a fren.
Nampak tenang pada zahirnya Tapi batin terseksa Yang terguris tak nampak di mata Yang terhiris terluka Sesekali terbit air mata Tahan sebak di dada
Kemanakah nak dibawa Resah kian melanda Di manakah hendak ku khabar Pilu di dalam dada
Kita singgah di dunia yang sementara Penuh tipu daya Yang kekal di sana Usahlah hanyut terus terlena Kerana dunia
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Alhamdulillah, I've been okay. Juz dat my mind hasn't been at ease. Dere's juz dis weird sensation which causes butterflies in my stomach. Itz lyk I practically kept tinking sum stuff which is lyk beyond anyone's imagination unless it really occurs dat is KIAMAT. Upon seeing d word 'KIAMAT', how do u feel? i get dose immediate goosebumps n itz really *shivers*
Actually, wad I wanna talk abt today is me being too busy n haven't got d tym to enjoy Allah's beautiful creations. I lurve d nature A LOT. I even consider staying away from d busy city, perhaps sumwhere not exactly d countryside.. perhaps, sumwhere with floras n faunas. My dream paradise! My tots: Marry a rich man whom I love and live happily ever after with him dere. Lyk awwwww... But den, sum ppl say it doesn't take sum1 rich to create a paradise. It takes unconditional love. Awww.. I want to make dat possible.. A paradise of my own, together with d person I love, with our children n parents.. AWWWW.. U dun need to go for honeymoon caz datz lyk more than honeymoon.. Awww.. N i was lyk tinking of creating out own garden together.. wah bez! den make a swing at d garden with a water fountain situated in d middle of d garden. Awww.. datz paradise on earth. wah best! n another ting, perhaps our house shud be situated on an island. fuh! bez! haha.. i seem to be overly ambitious here. Love makes d world go round.. With love, d imperfect will seem perfect. Awwww... BUT ALL THESE WILL BE MADE POSSIBLE LATER, NOT NOW. now is study, get a career den can dream abt having a paradise on earth. yay!
Moreover, I haven't been enjoying Allah's beautiful creation. N i'm sad. Perhaps, I shud take a break and go to d beach. Anyone teman me? But muz be sum1 lyk me.. Talk less, enjoy d beauty of nature more. Or else, I'll juz feel really dreadful and juz walk away, leaving u behind. seriously. I LURVE NATURE!!! i wanna migrate to switzerland and NATURE!!! yay! baq to topic, sum1, accompany me walk along d beach. so dat i wun be so lonely n u muz lurve nature as much as I do. or itz juz a waste of tym for u caz u cud haf done sumting better, kan kan kan??? haha. i'm juz missing nature so much, more than one can ever imagine. I wanna walk along d beach. N i'm not implying dat itz gonna be a romantic walk or wadsoever.. sheesh. itz gonna be a walk where u enjoy Allah's beautiful creations n oso u gotta sorta increase ur iman by appreciating dem.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Hmm.. i changed my blog address n made it more chim-inated. Why? caz too many ppl noe abt my blog n i hafta start making it as descrete as possible. yeh. duh ryt.. my blog is supposedly a replacement for my diary, n diary=secret. tho itz not a total secret, it still can be as descrete as possible. wala!
newayz, read rahman's blog. alaz i gotta noe sum1 hu's doing wad i'm doing. as in dun look for jodoh, let jodoh come to me. if dere's jodoh, i'll be happily married. if no jodoh, i'll be happily trying to be successful in my career n oso dakwah-ing to dose ppl hu nd me. Fuh! only God noes wad i really wanna do in future. sum ppl went lyk -> u sure? u hafta look for jodoh u noe or u myt not even c dat itz ur jodoh. n i was lyk, even if i dun look for it, my parents myt end up matchmaking me to sum1. haha. i'm happy with my typical lyf n u, yes u, dun hafta tell me watta do. caz i dun want u to tell me n i juz dun lyk it. itz so rimas-ing, can. n coming baq to jodoh topic. my mum told me d exact ting. let jodoh come to u, u dun hafta look for it. pay ur fullest attention to ur studies. n i was lyk, yeh, dat was d exact ting dat kept appearing in my mind n i'm gonna do juz dat. n my beloved abg dared me to not tink abt jodoh now n be successful fers. n me, being d dun-dare-me-or-u'll-gasp person accepted d dare. moreover, itz caz i tink datz a gd idea. hmm... i lurve challenges.. *grins*
n yes, I'm paying my fullest attention to my devotion towards my religion n definitely, Allah. i'm not letting dose seytons out dere tell me to go out n haf fun. n itz lyk hello, agn, i'm a family person. n i'm a home-y person. i lurve staying in. ouh wow, i'll be a gd wife.. haha.. dun sneer!
hmmz.. noe wadz.. i was tinking abt me; study rabakz n den, get a career i want, n be successful. n den make my parents happy.. n after dat, marriage? agn, wad if i earn more than my husband? n he expects me to quit my job? hu in d world wants to lose d career u've alwayz wanted, but at d same tym, u wanna be a blessed wife.. datz a real dilemma. haha. i juz need an understanding husband. but of course, he can't rely on my pays. datz not a blessed husband. tsk. agn, usually, gd husbands hu r devoted to religion n oso a gd leader to d family, plus an understanding one.. hmm.. dat doesn't come in packages. d rest of d tings i want my husband to be shan't be mentioned here. well, better not expect much tho. nobody's perfect. lyk i'm not perfect either, so y shud i look for d ideal perfect husband? God has promised -> gd person will be matchmade with gd person. but one ting for sure, i dun want a husband shorter than i m. lyk i seriously do not want dat. HORROR!
some ppl told me dat i've been really harsh dese dayz n kinda emotion-less. agn, y do u ppl tink sum1 become harsh? bad experiences ryt? lyk as for me, failures in love life made me dese way. i noe sum ppl will be saying, "but u can choose not to be dat". my answer is -> i want to be dat. i'm stiffening my heart in order not to let anth stifle me from achieving my ambition. i wanna succeed. and to make dat possible, i can't fall in love agn. i fear i'll be hurt agn n dat stifles me from succeeding. get wad i mean? i'd rather be harsh so dat nobody can fall in love with me n den, i wun fall in love with anybody. i'm 50% learning to hate guyz but dere's still another 50% for me not to hate guyz. ah well, wadever it is. i'm sure u noe wad my reason is for being so harsh. i'm sorri if i hurt anyone. it wasn't intentionally caz i'm trying my bez not to hurt anyone in d midst of stiffening my heart. if i did hurt u, alert me, k, caz as humanz, we r prone to mistakes w/out realising it.
laz issue: i haf chinese friends telling me dey do not understand some posts. i'm sori. u dun hafta noe d posts written in malay. u can read dose in English, ryt? haha. n as for my malaysian friends, u can read my posts in malay ryt? well, fair enough isn't it?
i suppose i needa end my post here. i needa start studying for my PERGAS exam. pray for me, can? *shivers*
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Life's been kinda ordinary. I'm baq to being the typical ordinary student hu attends school, come back from sch n study, complete as much hmwk as possible n not being committed to anth else outside school. Ouh, yes, I've been typically ordinary.
Umi told me to juz concentrate on studies first. Some friends told me not to commit now n study fers caz -> Ilmu comes before Amal. Hmm.. I sorta agree but hmm.. lemme c fers uh.. I'm prolly not committing as yet caz I wanna get to a JC (insya'Allah) and life in JC gonna be much more crucial than Secondary School. In Secondary school itself, I'm barely coping with life, considering that I'm also sick n I nd to b extra careful with myself in order not to fall ill. tsk..
Newayz, laz Sunday was Mothers' Day. On dat day, I happen to have PERGAS. Wad is PERGAS? Itz PERsatuan Guru-guru Agama dan para ulama' Singapura. It sounds lyk WOW! But well, dun be decieved. Itz juz an institute to pursue in ukhrawi. Hahaz. Something to ponder -> Some ppl tink dat Academics more important than Ukhrawi. And some others tink dat Ukhrawi is more important. Well, wad do u tink? Perhaps, there are people hu are gonna go "NO!!!" n some hu are gonna go "DUH!!!" As for me, itz a NO!!! Both are equally important in our life. As what Prophet Muhammad saw once said "Belajar sehingga ke negeri Cina". N excuse me, do not go "hur hur.. China has Islam-dominated places which focuses on ukhrawi". Caz if u're lyk dat, I'll juz go "hur hur.. IDIOT! what He said does not have a lateral meaning. Look at it as China having Chinese traditions which perhaps, u shud learn abt.. tsk.. By saying all those Islam-dominated places, u're not proving urself smart but otherwise.. tsk.."
Getting back to Mothers' Day topic. I bought my mum's fav cake after PERGAS! CHOCOLATE FUDGE!!!! YAY!!! My mum was so touched. I'm not assuming. She really said dat. N i'm happy till even now caz alaz, I did something pleasant and bought something she really liked. I oso bought this pretty tingy for her n she loved it. She needs it. Agn, alaz I bought her something she really needs and now, she's using it. *smiles widely* In the evening, my dad took us out for dinner. It was okay. The food there wasn't heavenly nice like my mum's cookings. Budden, I can't possibly fret caz it was Mothers' Day n my mum was supposed to rest and not cook to fill our stomach. My mum was happy caz she didn't have to spend any money nor do anything on that day. She was lyk d Queen. I spent so much on day dat tho. I'm not saying it out of depression. I juz feel good and felt lyk mentioning it. Itz in my blog newayz, not as if I broadcasted it to the whole world. Newayz, here's a shoutout for umi -> I LOVE U UMI!!! VERY D SOO MUCH!!! U'RE D LIGHT OF MY LIFE, HEART OF MY SOUL!! N I LURVE U MORE THAN U CAN EVER IMAGINE!!!
ouh yes, i'm very close to my family, especially my mum. I'm a family person. I'd rather go out with family than friends. I wud go d xtra miles to organise a family gathering for my family n my relatives which i successfully did with d help of my assistant cum cuzzin, Syahirah. We go to d same sch so we practically have LOADZ of tym spent together n yes, we organise d family gathering dated on so n so, December, yr 2006. It was fabulous but exhausting. Kudos to my uncles, aunts, dad n mum for bbq-ing for us. The food was gr8! as in GR8-GR8, not gr8-okay2. Fuh! Thx to Pak Busu n also my mum for marinating d chicken wings. They were superb! thx to me for d satay. i noe dey were so gr8 beyond words. thx to my cuzzin, farah, for accompanying me collect d satays. thx to d rest of my cousins for ur enthusiasm n make d event successful. thx to pak cik for forking out more money for d event. thx to syahirah for helping out tho u were rather lethargic on d laz day. i was too but i wasn't slacking okay.. haha! thx to everyone for helping clear up d place. n sori to d 2 phillipinos hu were collection donation. we didn't donate caz u seemed to be lying. moreover, u cudn't produce ur donation license when asked. so, too bad!
n MARCH HOLS NPCC CAMP!!! thx fusion for coming baq! no words can explain how much i missed u ppl. sori i cudn't spend tym with y'all. itz juz dat i had work to do. ur presence were appreciated kay. n thx for helping out with nightwalk. haha. n we shall go out together soon! miss u all dearly. sobz! n kamikaze, a job well done yeh! u all did gr8, really.. n camp was fun! yepz! sori cudn't join y'all for d 2nd day. i was falling really ill. lurve u fusion n oso kamikaze! n to my group, y'all were so HOT! was our grp name flying hippo? haha! at least, better than barney ya.. haha.. n i noe u all appreciated d kinder bueno i gave. ahaha! i lurve y'all too!
n omg! LP is baq! yes! i lurve LP much! LP-fied!!! woohoo!! Mike Shinoda shud go baq to LP n not Fort Minor. I dun lyk Fort Minor. dey've dumb songs. LP rawkz!!! woohoo!!! i noe sum ppl will be lyk.."God! she doesn't look lyk she listens to rock songs" datz so wadever can. dun judge a book by itz cover. I haf a whole lot collection of rock songs! N i DO NOT care wad ppl wud tink of me after dis. yes, i was a rocker n i still am. tho i lurve nasyid too. I can c d contrast btwn Rock songs n Nasyid songs. BUT HU CARES!!! itz not abt having weird tastes. itz about being able to adapt to 2 totally different environments. Rest assure, i rawk! n wipe dat grin of ur faces!
Saturday, April 07, 2007
In case you fail to notice In case you fail to see This is my heart bleeding before you This is me down on my knees
These foolish games are tearing me apart And your words, thoughtless words are breaking my heart Breaking my heart
Well, excuse me Guess I've mistaken you for somebody else Somebody who gives a damn Somebody more like myself
These foolish games are tearing me You're tearing me, you're tearing me apart And your words, thoughtless words are breaking my heart You're breaking my heart
Well I wonder could it be When I was dreaming about you, baby, you were dreaming of me Call me crazy, call me blind To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
Did I lose my life to someone better And that she loves you like I do I do, you know I really really do
Well hey, so much I need to say Been lonely since the day, the day you went away So sad but true For me there's only you Been lonely since the day The day you went away
I remember date and time April 06, friday, 15 minutes past 3 Read your message, I almost faint My mind's full of questions There were tears on my face
And we were letting go of something special Something we might never have again I know, I guess I really, really know
Why do we never know what we've got till it's gone How could I carry on? The day you went away Caz I've been missing you so much I have to say Been crying since the day The day you went away
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No, I can't forget this evening Or your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way the story goes You always smile but in your eyes, your sorrow shows Yes, it shows
No, I can't forget tomorrow When I think of all my sorrow When I had you there But then I (had to) let you go And now it's only fair That I should let you know What you should know
I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore
Your honour please, gotta believe what I say What I will tell happened just the other day I must confess caz I've had about enough I need your help, gotta make this thing here stop
Baby, I swear I'll tell the truth About all the things you used to do And if you thought you had me fooled I'm telling you now, objection overruled
One for the hurt and tears I cried It's two for the lie that you denied All rise, All rise
Three for the calls that you've been making It's four all my love you've been wasting All rise, All rise
You're on the stand with your back against the wall Nowhere to run and nobody you can call I just can't wait, now the case is open wide You'll try to pray, but Allah will decide
So step back Cos you don't know this jerk I know deep down that You don't want me to react I'll lay low, leaving all my options open The decision of the jury has not been spoken
Step in my heart You found that your space has gone But in reality, to whom does this heart belong I bring you into court to maybe preach my order And you know that you overstepped the border
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I heard you're doing okay But I want you to know I'm addic- I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care When you don't think about me Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy But you left anyway
I'm trying to forget that I'm addicted to you But I want it and I need it I'm addicted to you Now it's over Can't forget what you say And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Since the day I met you And after all we've been through Still addic- I'm addicted to you I think you know that it's true I'd run a thousan miles to get you Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy I did all that I could Just to keep you.. But you left anyway
How long will I be waiting? Until the end of time I don't know why I'm still waiting I can't make you mine
HEARTBREAKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
18:09
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh.
Hmm.. Yesterday was my b'dae. And to dose ppl hu wished me, THANK U!!! I LURVE U PPL LYK MANIAC!!!! To dose ppl hu didn't, better luck next time. no worriez, i wun be taking any revenge. *peace-maker*
Birthday but it was harsh. Imagine sum1 important in ur life didn't wish u. Fuh! It hurtz real bad! And I practically listened to Danial Powter's Bad Day song. I was practically tinking I was juz having a bad day but d worse was yet to come. And now, I realised I'm damned, damned in a religious way. Itz lyk I'm confident I didn't hurt those people who hurt me. So, in a way, somebody else was trying to hurt me. I'm being really analytical. I juz had to tink dat God is hurting me. Lyk duh right.. Prolly caz I 4got him and dis is a reminder lyk "REMEMBER ME!". I wasn't seeing it coming caz itz lyk SUDDENLY, BOOM! I'm damned! At least, I realise my mistake and I'm hoping hard I wun repeat my same idiocy again. Forget God and tink abt sumbody else. Wth! Nobody can replace Allah, Farz.
I was in my room the whole time tinking wad had I done wrong. Y r ppl angry with me and hurting me real bad at d same time. N now, I've got d answer. Thx to my mum hu knocked some sense into me. I'm starting to kill my ego. I used to tink I'm d only right one and everybody else is wrong. Not anymore, at least I hope so. At first I thought I wun haf anyone to spill out my heart contents to, but I was wrong. I haf my mum, God and a dear friend who's still dere for me, Nazihah.
To my beloved cousin, Megat Shah Rezza, thx for being d fers to wish me tho itz at 2am and I was tucked in bed. Thx a lot tau tau tau. And Abang Putra too, itz really swt of u to actually advice me. I was really down at d moment and u were dere. Thank u, abang! Luv u 2 loadedly!!!
Itz amazing how God hurts u in such a way till u tot u cudn't pick urself up anymore. Itz amazing how he make u realise u still haf Him and some others d next moment. Itz amazing how he gave u everything n make u realise u're d luckiest person ever lived. Itz amazing how he took everything away when u 4got ur responsibility as an insan. Allah, u're juz so amazing. N i lurve u dearly, more than anything else. Alhamdulillah, I begin to realise what I took for granted; ur love. Ur everlasting love. I hope dis lesson wud make me a better person. Allow me to start life afresh, a better insan to my religion, a better ummah, a better daughter, a better sister, a better grand daughter, a better niece, a better cousin, a better friend. I hope I'll be better tho I can't be d best. D best is still Rasulullah saw.
Ya Allah, God of Mercy, God of Kindness, God of Everything, I thank u for everything. I never felt better in my life. I had juz turned 17 and I hope I'll b d best I can ever be. I love u and I really do, more than anth n everything else. Amin.
Tangisan selubungi alam kisah manusia yg terleka seperti diriku ini Terhina di bumi sendiri Hilang segala apa yg dibina Kehancuran memusnah merata Kehidupan insan tak berdaya Dgn air mata, suka bertukar duka Cara harapan berubah gelita Kepadahan hidup yang amat sengsara
Keamanan, kedamaian, kerharmonian dan kasih sayang Harapan dlm kehidupan setiap insan Hulurkan bantuan kpda yang memerlukan Semaikan pelita iman
Sinaran harapan pasti kan tiba Menerangi hidup diri kita Masa hadapan yg kita impikan Hidup aman sentosa dan bahagia
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Don't give up It's juz d weight of the world When my heart's heavy, Allah will lift it for me
Don't give up Because I want to be heard If silence keeps me, Allah will break it for me
Everybody wants to be understood Well, Allah can hear me Everybody wants to be loved Don't give up Because I am loved
Don't give up It's just the hurt that I hide When I'm lost inside, Allah will be there to find me
Don't give up Becuase I want to burn bright If darkness blinds me, Allah will shine to guide me
Everybody wants to be understood Well Allah can hear me Everybody wants to be loved Don't give up Because I am loved I am loved
Don't give up Everyone needs to be heard I am loved _____________________________________________
Bertali arus dugaan tiba Menakung sebak airmata
Tidak ditempah hidup sengsara Suratan nasib yg melanda Menongkah badai bergelora Diredah bersendirian
Bagaikan camar pulang senja Patah sayapnya tetap terbang jua
Segenggam tabah dipertahankan Buat bekalan di perjalanan Kau bebat luka yg berdarah Kau balut hati yg calar
Telah tertulis suratan nasibmu Derita buatmu ada hikmahNya Terlukis senyum di bibir lesu Tak siapa tahu hatimu
Biar pun keruh air di hulu Mungkinkah jernih di muara Biarpun jenuh hidup dipalu Pasti bertemu tenangnya
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Cinta itu cahaya sanubari Kurniaan Tuhan fitrah insani Dan di mana terciptanya cinta Di situ rindu bermula
Cinta itu tidak pernah meminta Tetapi memberi sepenuh rela Rasa bahagia biarpun sengsara Berkorban segala-gala
Semua kerana cinta Yang pahit manis dirasa Menghibur nestapa Merawat luka damai di jiwa
Terpadam api benci permusahan Terjalinlah kasih sayang Begitulah cinta yang diidamkan Tanpa nafsu yang mencemarkan
Dan jangan pula kerana bercinta Kita pun leka entah ke mana Dan jangan pula kerana bercinta Tergadai semua maruah agama
Cinta yang sejati hanya cintakan Illahi Cinta ayah bonda tulus suci selamanya Cintakan saudara masa berada hanya sementara Cinta sesama insan suburkan dengan ketaqwaan
15:22
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Dah lama ana tak post. Ana tak berkesempatan sebab terlalu sibuk dengan sekolah. Peperiksaan pertengahan tahun kian menjelang. Ana takut, gementar, bimbang. Ya lah, sebab belum cukup bersedia. Banyak sangat subjek untuk dipelajari. Satu subjek, ada dalam 20 topik untuk diteliti. Tekanan yang ada pada diri kian meningkat. Hidup ini mcm main kejar2. Kalau lambat, tertinggal lah kita. apa aku ckp ni. kay nvm.
Maths test junnow lyk easy, to my surprise! haha! i was lazing ard the whole day yesterday. Didn't even both to open up my maths txtbk even once. Shows how malas I was. N I was watching tv. Hmm wad was i watching huh? Ouh yeh, I was watching Amazing Race. Talking abt Amazing Race, I never knew Polish are so unfriendly. And......... I'm not concluding through 1 or 2 persons. It was obvious lah can. i was watching Amazing Race and even the police officers gave a definite "NO!" when asked for help. Itz freaking tak waras! N i was telling my mum how much i wanted to visit the concentration camps in Warsaw, Poland. Looking at how unfriendly the citizens were, I might hafta give it a 2nd thought, prolly more. Like seriously uh. I can't stand unfriendly ppl. But I can't stand swell-headed, sombong moronz more. Dere's freaking annoying.
My msn rosak! Lagi annoying. K. Gotta end here. Tataz!
21:47
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat Illahi ana diberi peluang untuk melihat keindahan alam Allah ini. Alhamdulillah ana masih diberi kesempatan untuk menyayangiNya, keluarga tersayang, saudara-mara tercinta, jua rakan-rakan yang setia di sisi walaupun tika dinihari.
Ana harap antum sihat walafiat; zahir dan batin.
Hari ini, ana macam nak post entry but ana macam tak nak post gak. Mcm nak post tapi lost beyond words. Seems like someone's trying to forget that I even existed. Just tell me and I'll get the idea you know. And I'll go away, far away from you. I told you abt it gonna be hard and stuff but hu in d world cares. It's okay, uh. It wouldn't be my first time I suppose.
The other time I saw the jerk. Like wadever uh. Eh hello ar uncle, like as if I was delighted to see you. Harap muka handsome tapi.. Just because I smiled, it didn't mean anything. I was just being nice. FYI, I practically moved on. U cud even freaking tink I was trying to influence the other girls you flirted with to get rid of u. I've got a wonderful beautiful life to begin with. Excuse u, uh.. If they really got rid of u, u deserve it anywayz. So much for playing with girls' feelings uh. U tink itz funny eh? Laugh lor.. Huever in dis world cares. Stop influencing gurls with ur sweet rotten words ehk. I know u read my blog datz y I post this uh, kaypo. Dun tell me ur English is dat pathetic till u can't understand dis. If u tell me dat, I wud believe tho. Tinking I'm insulting u here? Sori, got no tym uh. I'm just making u c d real truth abt u. U're a pathetic jerk hu tries to gain sympathy by telling ppl of ur family life. U tell tales of ur father being a freaking jerk when the real truth is dat d jerk is u. Wait till ur father getta noe of u telling tales abt him. Continue telling tales when u're like freaking close with him. Eeeyer! U're personality is rottening by every opportunity u got to tell ppl dis uh. Disgusting! And den, can sum more haf d guts to make use of ur mum's illness uh. Wah, gain sympathy by telling ppl u're mum is sick and dat u've been taking care of her and dat at times, u couldn't find time to go to school, even to sit for exams. Datz lyk shitz caz I freaking noe d truth about u! U dun go to sch caz u skip sch, playing warcraft! Lame game played by a lame person. And u can freaking afford to spend money playing games when u said u barely haf d money as ur father doesn't give nafkah? U sure he doesn't uh? Den u'ld be dead by now as ur mum isn't working. N u cud even afford to buy sum1 a branded handphone and by urself one too and datz no money? Quit gaining sympathy as it shows how pathetic u r, not being able to do anth abt ur family situation. Telling ppl ur father takes all ur hard earns and u're left with none? U're disgusting uh telling tales abt how disgusting ur father is. U're freaking disgusting! Calling urself a son!? Eeeeeyeeewwww!!!! U're just digging ur own grave uh caz when ur father comes to noe of dis, u're dead. If he getz 2 noe of dis, take a chill grill caz I ain't d one telling him all dese. I've got no tym uh. Seriously, even if u find tym for me, I wudn't. I'm not as digusting as u! U gotta thank me for not mentioning ur name. Caz agn, I'm not as disgusting as u! Go read my blog agn! U'll get dis!
Stop looking for me just caz u tink I'm d cause of every rotten tings dat happened in ur lyf! I dun even care and I'm not d one hu has been doing dat! Disgusting idiot! Quit telling ppl it had been me telling tales abt u! U're psychotic! STOP GAINING SYMPATHY!!!!!
09:56
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Alhamdulillah tadi ada pergi therapy (doctor appointment) n he said dat dere's a lot of improvements. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Mungkin, ianya berkat doa mereka yg disayangi. Walaubagaimanapun, ini sudah pasti kerana ianya ketentuan Illahi. Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat Illahi. Ana harap ana akan sembuh terus. Insya'Allah. Doakan ana kay.
Balik therapy, ana ke Jamiyah Children's Home. Ana punya first day mentoring. Mentee ana merupakan seorang budak lelaki bernama Khair Ramadhan berumur 10 tahun, dan juga adiknya yg berumur 7 tahun. Ana betul-betul impressed dengan Ramadhan. Ramadhan is a super pleasant boy. He impresses upon me with his courtesy and maturity. Ana bantu dia sedikit dengan matapelajaran Matematiknya. Ramadhan pandai. Dia cepat mengerti apa yg diajarkan. Alhamdulillah. He told me he really trusts me even though it's only my first time. He told me quite a fair bit of things and he's such a sweety. Ramadhan loooks like as if he has no problems and that he is happy with all he got. Tetapi, bila ana berbual dengannya, ana dapat merasakan bahawa ada sesuatu yg dia ingin beritahu ana tetapi dia malu. Dia ada katakan kepada ana bahawa dia malu nak ceritakan certain issues dengan ana. Kesian.. Ana dah bertekad untuk mendekati Ramadhan dan bantu dia dalam menghadapai segala cabaran dan dugaan hidup. I know he's someone hu needs help. I'll rescue u Ramadhan dear!!! Kakak will alwayz save u!
Hadirnya tanpa kusedari Menggamit kasih cinta bersemi Hadir cinta insan padaku ini Anugerah kurniaan Illahi
Lembut tutur bicaranya Menarik hatiku untuk mendekatinya Kesopanannya memikat di hati Mendamaikan jiwaku yang resah ini
Ya AllahJika dia benar untukku Dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku Jika dia bukan milikku Damaikanlah hatikuDengan ketentuan-Mu
Dialah permata yang dicari Selama ini baru kutemui Tapi ku tak pasti rencana Ilahi Apakah dia kan kumiliki
Tidak sekali dinodai nafsu Akan kubatasi dengan syariat-Mu Jika dirinya bukan hatiku dengan ketentuan-Mu Ya Allah Engkaulah tempat kubergantung harapanku Kuharap diriku sentiasa di bawah rahmat-Mu
Ana syg sgt ngan dia.. Tot I cud resist him but what telah happen? Kay, haiz.. nvm. I'm meant to live dis way. I'm really sad. He seems to not be serious and stuff. Takper lah.. ana tabah.
Newayz, happy kambing-ing ppl! Mehhhh..... Selamat Hari Raya Haji!
22:34
Monday, December 25, 2006
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat Illahi ana diberi peluang untuk melihat kecantikan alam Allah ini. Alhamdulillah ana masih diberi kesempatan untuk menyayangiNya, keluarga tersayang, saudara-mara tercinta, jua rakan-rakan yang setia di sisi walaupun tika dinihari.
Ana harap antum sihat walafiat; zahir dan batin.
Sejak kebelakangan ini, ana tidak mengerti mengapa ana lebih suka bersendirian. Ana seperti dapat merasakan bahawa ana mempunyai begitu banyak masalah yang masih dipersoalkan. Nampak jer macam ana ni happy-go-lucky tetapi siapa yang mengerti segala yg tersembunyi di dalam hati. Ana sering tersenyum, tertawa; macam orang gila lah kan, tapi entahlah, hanya Allah swt yang Maha Mengetahui. Ana putuskan, biaslah rahsia.
Ada yang tertanya dengan siapa ana sedang bercinta. Jawapan ana ialah; Ana bukannya sedang bercinta. Ana menyayanginya tetapi ana tak pasti jikalau dia pun begitu. Ana takkan beritahu sesiapa pun siapa yang ana maksudkan itu. Tolong jgn paksa ana. Syukran. Sekali lagi, ana putuskan, biarlah rahsia.
Ana tidak mahu mengharapkan. Buat apa mengharapkan. Bukankah ia seakan-akan menepuk sebelah tangan? Biarkan dia seorang yang tahu bahawa ana jujur apabila ana mengaku bahawa ana menyayanginya. Ana bukannya seorang yang mempermainkan perasaan orang lain. Ana tahu bahawa apabila kita memberitahu seseorang bahawa kita menyayanginya, kita MESTI jujur dan nawaitu kita sudah tentunya kerana Allah swt, dan bukannya kerana nafsu harta kekayaan atau lain-lain lagi. Yang pastinya, nawaitu ana bersih kerana Allah swt. Walaupun ana masih kecewa dengan pengalaman silam, ana yakin ana menyayangi insan tersebut. D fact is dat, nobody has treated ana d way he treats ana. He makes me happy. Setiap kali ana dapat msg drpd dia, ana tersenyum. Ana tak tahu mcm mana nak describe betapa gembiranya ana bila dpt msg drpd dia. Ana tahu dia tak tahu kegembiraan ana. Memang ana tak tunjukkan pun. Haha. Mungkin salah ana sendiri. Walaubagaimanapun, ana putuskan, biarlah rahsia.
Antum dah boringkan pasal sumer pon ana putuskan biarlah rahsia. Wah, best kan main teka teki gini.. Ana tak pernah mention jejaka ni pat sesiapa pun except umi ana sendiri. Justeru itu, tekalah, takkan game punya.
Tadi dia tanya napa tak ajak bila ana gi pasir ris park. Ikotkan hati, nak jugeklah ajak tapi kan.. waktu tu, ana marah ngan dia. Dia msg harsh noh. Kecik hati ana tapi pasal ana takmo ganggu dia, lantas ana pendamkan. Ana putuskan, biarlah rahsia. Dia suruh ana tak msg dia melainkan dia msg ana. Amek uh! Btol2 tak msg! Heh! Juz becaz dia tau ana sygkan dia, abeh dia nak take advantage ke per? Tgk uh ana saper! Bukan sembarang pompanz uh. Ni wanita, bukan sekadar pompan. I dun give face. U want it dat way, u'll get it. Dun test me whether I love u or not. I dun give a damn. Caz once i said yes, I mean well. N ana soooo don't merajok. Tak kuasa noh. Kalau ana diam atau jawab sepatah dua patah, tak bermaksud ana merajok. It's just dat ana malas nak layan. Ana not someone who spoils ana nyer water face. Malas noh nak layan.
Hmm.. mebbe sampai sini jer uh. Ana penat uh, ingin berehat barangkali. Apa-apa yang ana katakan dlm entry ni, kalau terasa, maaf dipinta. Ana betol2 nyer takder mood. Perhaps, ana nak gi pasir ris park next wednesday. Bawak bahan-bahan untuk belajar sekali. Bestnyer!!!
"Ya Allah, ampunilah segala dosa hamba-hambaMu, samada kecil mahupun besar. Berikanlah hidayah kepada kami yang belum dapat merasakannya. Teguhkan iman kami yang sudah mendapat hidayah daripadaMu. Kekalkanlah rasa cinta kami terhadapMu. Sayangilah kami sebagaimana kami menyayangiMu. Smoga kami sentiasa merendahkan diri kami denganMu kerana kami tidak ingin tersesat jalan ketika berusaha mencari keredhaanMu. Berikanlah kekuatan, ketabahan dan keteguhan iman kepada kami yang lemah serta hina ini, lebih-lebih lagi untuk menghadapi segala dugaan, cabaran dan ujian hidup. Kabulkanlah doa ini. Sesungguhnya kau Ar-Rahman lagi Ar-Rahim. Amin."
00:53
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Kuharap... kau cuba memahami Luahan hati ini Yang ingin dicintai
Kuharap... kau dapat menghayati Sentuhan jiwa ini Yang ingin disayangi
Tiada balasan Yang ada hanyalah alasan Tiada jawapan Yang ada hanyalah persoalan
Di manakah kejujuran Di manakah ketulusan Di manakah keikhlasan Di manakah kejujuran
Kerana Tuhan hanya mahukan Kejujuran, keikhlasan... cinta
Kuharap... kau dapat menghayati Sentuhan jiwa ini Yang ingin disayangi
Kuharap... kau cuba memahami Luahan hati ini Yang ingin dicintai
Kuharap... kau dapat menghayati Sentuhan jiwa ini Yang ingin disayangi
Di manakah kejujuran Di manakah keikhlasan Di manakah ketulusan Di manakah keikhlasan
Kerana Tuhan hanya mahukan Kejujuran, keikhlasan... cinta
20:33
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh. Hari ini nyer entry, ana tak nak type panjang. Apa yg ana nak cakpkan, semua sudah terdapat dalam lirik lagu.
Telah tertulis suratan nasibku Derita buatku ada hikmahnya Terlukis senyum di bibir lesu Tak siapa tahu hatiku
Biarpun keruh air di hulu Mungkinkah jernih di muara Biarpun jenuh hidup dipalu Pasti bertemu tenangnya
Kerana Cinta
cinta itu cahaya sanubari kurniaan Tuhan fitrah insani dan di mana terciptalah cinta di situ rindu bermula
cinta itu tak pernah meminta tetapi memberi sepenuh rela rasa bahagia biarpun sengsara berkorban segala-gala
semua kerana cinta yang pahit manis di rasa menghibur nestapa merawat duka damai di jiwa
terpadamlah api benci permusuhan terjalinlah kasih sayang begitulah cinta yang diidamkan tanpa nafsu yang mencemarkan dan jangan kita pula kerana bercinta kita pun leka dan jangan pula kerana bercinta tergadai semua maruah agama
cinta yang sejati hanya cintakan illahi
cinta ayah bonda tulus suci selamanya
cintakan saudara hanya sementara
sesama insan suburkan dengan ketakwaan..
Hanya Tuhan Yang Tahu
Kupendamkan perasaan ini Kurahsiakan rasa hati ini Melindungkan kasih yang berputik Tersembunyi di dasar hati
Kupohonkan petunjuk Illahi Hadirkanlah insan yang sejati Menemani kesepian ini Mendamaikan sekeping hati
Oh Tuhanku berikanlah ketenangan abadi Untukku menghadapi resahnya hati ini Mendambakan kasih insan yang kusayang
Di hati ini hanya Tuhan yang tahu Di hati ini aku rindu padamu Tulus sanubari menantikan hadirmu Hanyalah kau ______ (insert name) pilihanku
Kerana batasan adat dan syariat Menguji kekuatan keteguhan iman Insan yang berkasih
Mahligai Kasih
Duhai kasih cuba kau dengarkan Isi hati penuh kejujuran Dengan sepenuh keikhlasan Kudambakan pengertian
Sebenarnya aku merasa Sinar cahaya yang gemilang Ketika kau beriku harapan Dan sering aku harapkan Cinta berlandas keimanan Dan kasih suci kitakan diberkati
Ku cuba sedaya Agar dirahmati perhubungan yang telah terbina Kerna pasti aku Yang akan merasa pedihnya kehilangan insan sepertimu
'Kasih kuharapkan cinta kita kan terus kekal hingga ke syurga'
Tuhan berikanlah Ketabahan hatiku untuk membina impian kasihku Bersama mengharapkan Ketulusan cinta ini hingga terbina mahligai bahgia
Sutera Kasih
Kian lama terpenjara Mencari makna cinta Dalam ungkap kata bersulam dusta
Bila gerbang rahmat terbuka Menjelma cinta suci Sehalus dan selembut sutera kasih
Rela pasrahkan kehidupan Mengharungi cabaran Rintangan perjalanan di hadapan
Doa dan titis air mata Mendamba sutera kasih Agar terus bersemi selamanya
Ku Serah Cinta
Ku serah segala ketentuan Biarlah masa yang berbicara Dipangku wajah yang layu Dan aku telah jemu
Aku tidak mahu berpaling Pada yang mengganggu dan menggugat Sapanya meletihkan diri Hadirnya mengundang penat
Akan ku serah cinta ini Bukan lagi pada manusia Kerana cinta martabat itu Bersalut segunung kepalsuan Dan kepuraan
Aku semakin tidak peduli Apa yang mungkin akan terjadi Kerana gerak dan tindakanku Mahu bebas dari masalah
Ku serahkan cinta ini Hanya padaMu, oh Tuhan
Akan ku serah cinta ini Bukan lagi pada manusia Kerana cinta martabat itu Bersalut segunung kepalsuan Dan kepuraan
Aku adalah aku sekarang Biar terbuang tetap berjuang Akan ku serahkan jiwa ini Sepenuh hati dengan keikhlasan Aku adalah aku yang sekarang Ku serahkan cinta ini
Bicara Kata
Manis bicara indah tutur kata Tak seindah rupa pengertiannya Lembutnya lidah mengata nista Lidah yang tiada bertulang Mengadu domba Serta memfitnah sesama saudara
Terkadang aku berfikir sendirian Perlukah amarahku dibiar terus menyala Membakar membara dengan rasa bangga Mencela mereka dengan kata-kata
Kata ibarat pedang Yang tajamnya bisa membunuh lawan Kata-kata yang berhikmah Menyedarkan kita
Kata madah pujangga Bisa menjadi pedoman manusia Jagalah bahasa kata kita Jangan disalah guna
Yang merah itu saga Yang kurik itu kendi Yang indah itu bahasa Yang cantik budi pekerti
Terkadang aku mentaksir manusia Kurniaan Tuhan telah banyak dikhianati Mencerca, menghina, dustanya bicara Menyusun nista dengan kata-kata
Terlajak perahu masih boleh diundur lagi Terlajak kata buruk padahnya Terlajak perahu masih boleh diundur lagi Terlajak kata hilang percaya Hilang percaya...
16:35
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat Illahi ana diberi peluang untuk melihat kecantikan alam Allah ini. Alhamdulillah ana masih diberi kesempatan untuk menyayangiNya, keluarga tersayang, saudara-mara tercinta, jua rakan-rakan yang setia di sisi walaupun tika dinihari.
Ana berharap antum sihat walafiat; zahir dan batin.
Hari ini, ana meluangkan masa untuk adik2 tersayang. Kami dapat menikmati permainan Monopoly bersama. Kami bermain, bergurau senda. Dari situ, sudah terserlah keakraban kami tiga beradik. Walaupun kami sering bertengkar, bagaikan anjing dan kucing, kami tetap menyayangi antara satu sama lain. Pertengkaran di antara kami tidak berpanjangan dan ana yakin dengan pepatah Air yang dicincang tiada putus.
Umi dan papa sering mengingatkan ana supaya sentiasa dengan adik-adik, lebih-lebih lagi kerana ana anak yang pertama. Sebagai kakak, ana mesti selalu mengalah dan tabah menghadapi segala dugaan terutama sekali dengan perangai adik-adik yang kadangkalanya, sungguh mengguris hati. Sebagai seorang insan biasa, ana tidak dapat mengelak diri ana daripada memarahi adik-adik, lebih-lebih lagi jikalau mereka keterlaluan.
Ana sedar akan kelemahan yang terdapat pada diri ana. Salah satunya ialah mudah irritated. Kerana kelemahan inilah yang membuat ana senang terguris hati, melepaskan amarah dan lain-lain lagi. Setelah itu, ana suka memencilkan diri ana di dalam kamar. Ana bukannya melepaskan amarah ana di dalam bilik. Sebaliknya, ana beristighfar dan solat sunat 2 rakaat demi memohonkan ketenangan dari Allah swt. Ana yakin, dengan mendekatkan diri ana dengan Allah swt, ana akan perolehi ketenangan yang luar biasa yang dapat memadamkan api kemarahan, mengubatkan kepedihan dan kesengsaraan di hati. Dengan ini jua, ana dapat meneguhkan iman ana yang mungkin tidak seteguh sebelumnya akibat api kemarahan dalam diri. Hanya kepada Allah, hamba-hambaNya dapat memohon segala. Hanya kepada Allah, hamba-hambaNya dapat mengadu keperitan di hati. Hanya kepada Allah, hamba-hambaNya dapat meluahkan segalanya tika tiada siapa yang dapat memahami. Hanya kepadaNya, hamba-hambaNya tidak mungkin akan putus harapan. Allahuakbar! Allah Maha Besar.
Hingga sini sahaja ana dapat blog. Insya'Allah, ana akan blog lagi. Harap antum dapat mempelajari sedikit sebanyak tentang kesabaran di dalam entry ini. Fa Shabrun Jamil (Sabar Itu Indah). Innallaha Maas Shobirin (Sesungguhnya Allah bersama orang yang bersabar). Sabar itu separuh daripada iman. Seseorang yang bersabar itu seorang yang beriman.
Akan ana akhiri dengan Wabillahi taufik wal hidayah wassalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh.
19:50
Monday, December 18, 2006
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This is a new nasheed, Ma'Allah, With Allah
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14:30
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Argh!! Ana mcm dah syg pat dia.. sumer ana buat tak kena.. 24 jam rindu pat dia sampai terbawak-bawak mimpi. Dis is super scary caz dis has never happened to me. Never! n dis is d fers time. N d ting is, I tink he lyks sum1 else n he was just joking abt liking me. But I really like him I tink. I'm beginning to realise how much I actually missed him when he didn't appear online or he didn't msg me. Like sumhow, mcm real loss. But am I ready for all these? This, I'm still very uncertain myself. Ya Allah, berikanlah petunjukMu.
17:13
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Assalamualaikum warrahmatullahi ta'ala wabarrakatuh
Hmm.. ana update blog ni jap jer.. pasal ana nak gi belajar uh. 2 more weekz till school re-opens.. seramnyer..
Alhamdulillah ana sihat. Harap antum begitu. Sekarang ni, ana ngah cari kursus Bahasa Arab. Any recommendations anyone? Or anyone wanna go for d course with me? Looking for a partner - as in partner for the course, not life partner. Rasa-rasanya bukanlah masanya utk bercinta lah kan.. Tapi kekadang eh, rasa-rasanya lah kan, mcm dah terpaut pada seseorang, mungkin 2 org? Mungkin 3? I'm trying to make myself sound evil here.. Muahahahaha! Yang sebenarnya, ana putuskan biarlah rahsia. Ana tak rasa ana boleh commit mcm dulu. Mcm dah betul2 pasrah gitu, ntah lah eh.. Hanya Tuhan yang tahu. Ana belum recover drpd peristiwa semalam. Justeru itu, ana tak mahu sesiapa yang ana MIGHT accept, suffer caz of me and my weakness. Wow, I'm being so considerate here. Not bad.. Kelemahan yg terdapat pada diri ana tidak dapat dihilangkan. Ana sedang berusaha tetapi, ia tetap hadir dalam diri. Sayu hati ini mengenangkan nasib diri. Macam TERjiwang gitu.. Ter jer, bukan sengaja. Apa ana merepek ni, ana pun tak tahu. Ana tak tau tetapi ada seorang insan ni, he stands out from d rest yg ana kenali. Hati budi dia, ntah eh.. mcm lain gi2. Penyayang tau, mcm nama dia.. haha! Budden. d fact is, it's relatively hard for me to fall for sum1. Just look at how Ana respond to confessions and how I reject; like a bitch but huever cares.. Haha! Umi kerap mengatakan diri ana ni degil, keras hati. Ntah eh, tetapi apakan daya.. Ana can't possibly accept all 11 guyz. Yeh, if dat jerk is reading my blog, here's for him, "U tink u're cool! Shit no! Go away lah moronified baboonic dodo! Stop campur-ing into my life okay! If u got cheated, itz karma! What goes around comes around! Heh!" I dun fall for someone juz caz of sum shittified swt words. Impress upon me, and I MIGHT swoon over u (tho it takes decades for me to notice). Haha! Noe wadz, Ana really respect him, yeah. Sounds wadever but ntah naper ntah. I hafta lyk knock some sense into myself. I'm so doink! Sheesh!
Y am I so violent? Hmm.. u wanna noe y? Caz ana been berusaha-ing to get over dat jerk but it hurtz.. Itz really harsh.. especially on how much Ana loved him. Really hurts body n soul. Ana hope my next love life wouldn't be like this. Ana redha dengan qada' dan qadar Illahi tetapi ana tak sanggup menanggung satu lagi derita percintaan. Ana harap sesiapa yg ana myt end up with will be as setia as me. All d while, I've been d understanding n patient one, d next tym (tho I'm not sure if dere's gonna be a next tym), is gonna be a pleasant one where he(dunno hu) will cooperate with me in blossoming d relationship. Sounds so wadever but huever cares.
Mengapa kisah lalu menghantui diri? Mengapa sukar bagiku mengubati hati? Walau ku redha dengan qada' dan qadar Illahi, Tidakku yakin diri ini akan mencintai lagi.
Cinta sejati pertama terlalu dalam mengguris hati, Menghancurkan harapan, impian di dalam hati; Mungkin jodoh akan ku temui, Tetapi, Akankah hati benarkan diri dilukai lagi, Terus dihimpit kepedihan hati dan sanubari, Ketika terpaksa menempuhi ranjau onak duri?
Kini ku menyendiri sahaja; Entah sampai bila, Mungkin setelah ku berjaya kecapi ijazah? Mungkin selamanya?
Ya Illahi, Ku pohon kepadaMu Tuhan semesta alam ini, Moga Kau tidak lekang dari hati dan sanubari, Cinta kepadaMu ku sematkan dalam diri, Bermekar indah berseri; Bantulah hambaMu yang lemah serta hina ini, Berilah kekuatan iman dalam diri, Sesungguhnya hanya Kau lah pengubat hati.
13:18
I[The Princess Loves]I
~Chocolates
~Roses
~teddy bears
~read love novels
~enjoying & appreciating nature
~writing poetries
~nice cute stuff which are purple, pink, white n black
~Everything abt Islam such as..
-Listening to Quran recitation by Misyari Afasi
-Listening to Zikrullah by Hijjaz
-Islam research
-Attending religious functions or events
-Planning events for Muslim youths [duh.. y do u tink i becum a Muslim youth activist]
~Purple, pink, black, white
~Loves kids!!! [duh.. y do u tink i do child-minding ryt..]
I[The Princess's Personality]I
~loving and lovable
~smile and laugh a lot
~bubbly
~true socialite
~happy-go-lucky
~annoying [I KNOW]
~can be complicated at times.. so, getta know me.. lol
~haf gd listening ears n shoulders to cry on
~loves home
~loves the library
~loves the mosque
~juz another human in Allah's list
I[The Princess Has]I
-dearestest someone, sometwo, somethree
-annoying but sweet younger brother n younger sister
-loving, understanding n supportive mama
-religious papa
I[Summary of The Princess]I
~a very simple girl who is devoted to Allah, Islam, her family and whoever she's committed to
~someone who has goals and dreams and would not let anyone stifle me from achieving them
~Honestly, guys who wear shorts in public turn me off. Disgusting can!
~a freelance volunteer. Lyk any Islam organisations or mosques which nd xtra help, can approach me. Insya'Allah will help if I'm not busy
~lurves kidz yepz! LOTZ!
CINDERELLA
* I CAN SLAY MY OWN DRAGON
* I CAN DREAM MY OWN DREAMS
* THE NIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR IS ME
When I was just a little girl
My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story
It always was about a Princess in distress
And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory
I'd lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be
Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn't for me
I don't wanna be like Cinderella
Sittin' old old dusty cellar
Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free
I don't wanna be like Snow White waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On a horse of white, unless we're riding side by side
Don't want to depend on no-one else
I'd rather rescue myself
Someday I'm gonna find someone
who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way I am Don't need nobody taking care of me
I will be there for him
just as strong as he will be there for me
when I get myself started
it got to be an equal thing
I can slay, my own dragon
I can dream, my own dreams
My knight in shining armour is me
So I'm gonna set me free